Let it go......

Let it go......

You know, I never like to start at the beginning.  It’s one of my issues, to be a beginner.  I want to be in the middle.  I want to understand what I am doing and be good at it.  Or at least be doing it.  But that can’t always happen.  There has to be a time when we are all beginners. 

Yet I understand the beginners mind.  And I admire the beginners mind, in others.  That place that is full of excitement learning about something new.  The place of being where they have no expectation of the results, because there have never been any results to compare.  Or even the place of not knowing what they are doing so there is more freedom to explore possibilities.  That in itself can lead to the greatest discoveries.

I’m in that place right now.  At the beginning.  And it is scary.  And I want to be in the middle.  In a comfort zone type of place where I know what is going on and what will happen. The comfort zone is so predictable we can do it in our sleep.  Only now is a time to wake up and pay attention.  Everything is about to change. 

Right now there is much in my life that is starting over again.  All at the same time.  The comfort zone is being pulled out from under me and I must either go with the flow or cling onto that rug for dear life hoping it will stay and I have something familiar to work with.

While in Maui August 2015, I had an amazing session with a Shaman.  Her words still echo in my soul,  “Let it go, let it go, let it go”.  It was a very powerful time with her and this has been building inside of me ever since.  It feels like a dam that has become too full and is about to burst.

It feels so scary and also it is exciting.  Everything will change, if I let it, and there is a chance to have a beginners mind.  To explore and see what might happen next.  If I don’t drive myself crazy while it is happening.

It is time to let it go and be a beginner.